When I'm The Only One Awake

We finally have our internet back on again at home.

I can't sleep. Kasyfi has just fallen asleep and Nawi was already knocked out long time ago...!

Kasyfi had a good long afternoon nap so I'm not surprised that he was still wide awake at 10pm.

He and I shared an apple just now. We had a little conversation all 'whisper' tone because Nawi was asleep. I think Kasyfi only just learnt to whisper, he usually can't or can't be bothered to control the loud volume of his voice but now he's getting very good at keeping his voice down.

So anyway, there we were just quietly eating our apple and then at the last slice Kasyfi picked up the slice, handed it to me and said "Mama makan...". Sweet huh??!! Whispering so that Nawi won't wake up and then offering the last slice to his mummy....aaawwwww... Isn't he being an angel...??!! aawwww.... I must remember this moment....

Then just at that second when I was thinking about what a big boy Kasyfi is now, I suddenly thought of how much his Grandad must be missing him. And then that made me think of all the years of Kasyfi and Nawi's growing up their Grandad would be missing. :(

It's so distressing to be in a situation in which you have no power over. It's even more worse not knowing how their Grandad is going to be over the years and wondering if this would have any effect on their relationship in the future?

Please, please, let their Grandad make it through in good health during his time in which he has to be there because his grandkids need him back as soon as he can come home. The days pass by as usual but only one thing is difficult to get used to, that is the absence of the daily visits of their Nenek Gadong....probably the only part of the day which those two really look forward to.

Any sound of a car pulling into the garage and Kasyfi would race to the door or window, jumping up and down shouting, "Nenek datang, nenek datang" ...all on going activities stop and put on hold all because the Guest of Honour has arrived.

Remembering the way it used to be saddens me because it really is going to be a long time till they can expect their 'Guest of Honour' to come around to visit the house.

And when he finally does come over, well, the kids won't be 1 and 2 yrs old anymore....hehhe..they'll be big and have their own minds and probably be too busy with homework!

But I suppose, 'better late than never'.......